Wow-so I haven't written since last year! I know lame joke but I thought it might get at least a chuckle.

Not much is going on...Christmas and New Years has passed... A quick run down:

I hope this year brings some epifanies to me and my closest. I had one best friend come home and I'm still waiting for the other. Sad news is they won't be home together. On the selfish level at least I don't have to share time with them. That's very selfish-sorry.

I got some cool gifts, but it didn't feel that cool because I couldn't exactly give anything great in return.

My car is still f*%^$@ up. I paid $420 and it's doing exactly what it was before hand. Grrr. I need new tires so hopefully that'll help with the horrible sounds and jerking it's doing.

I cut 5 inches off of my hair-it's a nice, new, sexy feel. Now if everything else would fir into that mold-I'd be set.

I finally got to see my brother and his wife, hadn't seen Jason since May. It's interesting to see how the married thing is working for them. I hope I end up with someone who's motivated, money conscious, and who challenges me instead of telling me what to do. Different strokes for different folks I guess. I'm just glad most of my needs are different then the ones I see here. Granted, every woman has the same basic needs: love, stability, support, reliability, and honesty. I think maybe I have some serious demand issues because my standards asks for more than that. I don't think my standards are too high-why should I settle. But women get to a point where they A) lose self worth and settle or B) are sick of being let down and never finding their standards. I'm just to the point where I think maybe I'm not going to find someone that thinks like me and on my level. Where is men's passion for life? And I'm not talking about bedroom passion. Why are men and people in general afraid to live? What's life worth if you aren't going to live it? Oh well. Always my worst enemy and devil's advocate in this area.

I'm making dinner for my family and Sina and Jason tomorrow night. Crab Alfredo-I got a different recipe so hopefully it'll be better than the last alfredo I made. Not such a warm reception on that one. But my brothers love food so I know it'll get eaten. The joy of having brothers.

I've become a dog park mogul. I love the dog park-I like seeing the other dogs. Emily socializes pretty well there and the people seem to love her for the most part. I've met and seen some pretty interesting people. I see just as many men as I do women so that's cool. There are some really cute dogs, especially the puppies.

Work is work and I'll be looking for a new job after the holiday stuff is done. The atmosphere there is crashing. I know I can do better (Fast food at this point would be better). I want an enjoyable job that doesn't make me feel like I'm wasting away.

I don't know really what else is going on-life like everything else is shrouded in uncertainty. I wish something would jump up and grab me. Hehe. I'd probably keel over and die of fright.
Anyway, I hope your christmas and new years celebrations have been good to you.