Hey hey,
I'm back....
I know it's been awhile, but I've been busy with great things. (Or should I say great someones). Hehe. I've been schooling, working, hanging out with my family occasionally, hanging out with some of the greatest, real people I've ever met, and getting to know a very awesome guy. It's getting very hard not to be attached. There's that connection that I haven't felt very often. Probably because I wouldn't allow it in other situations, but this is different. It doesn't matter what I want and don't want to feel. I care enough to talk about God and how that all affects me and him...I think I've only talked to one or two guys about God and all that, especially not cried about it. Unfortunately, or fortunately my walls aren't as big or solid as I thought they were. Sometimes I surprise myself. No that's not it, sometimes I'm surprised God uses me. I'm glad though.
So I've been getting to hang out with some amazing people. Real people who aren't afraid to be themselves and they let God show through and aren't afraid to be known as christians. But the greatest thing, which is sometimes uncommon in christians is they don't judge. They tell you how they see it, but if your opinion is different they don't mind. In fact, conversations with them is always insightful. I feel like I've finally found some place where I can be me and it's good enough. I fit in and I'm appreciated...it's a great feeling. They're very good at lifting people up. They have helped me see things differently and in a better light. We talk about faith, other religions, and purposes. I've always felt like I've had a purpose, but sometimes I don't feel like I'm qualified for God's purposes. But even though I don't know what it is, or what I'm called for-it's ok because God's going to give me the strength and anything else I need for it. It's nice knowing I'm not alone. I use to want to know my purpose, but now I just want to do it, whatever it is ,great or small, it's God's purpose for me. Who am I to turn that down.
Oh I went to a show on sunday night and initially I thought it might suck. It was alternative/screaming type bands, but they were christian, which made me wary. I know that I had a completely wrong attitude, but good christian music is hard to find. But I went because I wanted to spend some time with friends. It was really good. I was impressed, first off by the place it was at-it was like this church had taken everything you love about the bar, except alcohol (which I never went for that) and brought it into this church club. The place was huge-pool tables, food, drinks, a stage, etc. It was very cool. If it wasn't 2.5 hours away I'd have to check it out. The groups were good and I really liked Project 86. Everything was like a regular concert, except they were about God. I think I might need that more often. It was awesome. My ears are still getting back to normal. Hehe, but hey it was a great time.
I have to go and do homework...I know it's almost the story of my life, but not. Hopefully I'll be getting better at this grade thing. Hehe
