I saw this commercial and the music summed up my feelings...

It's good to feel...

It's good to be..............

It's a great time to be alive......


Feel the same.

Yes, indeed. So I got my nutrition test back and I was certain that I failed. I left that class feeling so crappy because I studied (not a whole lot) and then didn't feel like I knew anything. But I got it back today and I got an 88% which is a high B+. I couldn't believe it. I was like woohoo thankyou God. I know that with him I can do all things. My problem is I try and do it alone most of the time, but things are changing. I've decided that I should a) study more, and more importantly b) put God first in everything-even silly tests. I see so many people that put work, money, themselves, girlfriends/boyfriends, etc. first and it breaks my heart. All those things fail and let you down. I know I've been there. But God never lets you down. Granted, hos answers aren't always what you want to hear, but you can put faith in the fact that it's the best for you. Who knows better God or you? I always use to choose me, always...and that's what got me into a lot of trouble. I know exactly who to blame-me! It's not easy but the first step to changing and being better is admitting. Hehe. I've already admitted and I'm now moving on to better things. I learn from my mistakes-yes, sometimes it's the 3 or 300th time I'm doing the mistake, but I'm learning and changing for the better. It's an exciting process, not easy, but I know it's the right thing. Really, how often is the right thing the easy thing? Honestly, not real often. But hey the journey/adventure is just beginning....

I'm revived! I feel as though part of me from a very long time ago has been restored. You know when you're younger, I'm talking 6 or 7, and regardless of what was going on around you, no matter how much you failed, you still felt good because it didn't mean you were less? That feeling that says, "Yeah I'm me and I'm great with that!" I feel that and it's so good. I always look to improve, but I'm not out for pleasing people. I'm me and it's good enough. I'm a big compromiser (middle child thing) and I think I'm done compromising myself. It's like a load off my shoulders. Another thing I feel great about is I was looking for everything in nothing. Let me explain, nothing being a person. Ever since I abandoned nothing-I've been seeing everything. God works in mysterious ways. I've been hanging out with more people, real people who listen, give opinions but can still listen to your without being judgemental, aren't shallow, look at you and still like you-regardless of your faults. It's been such an experience and I'm only at the beginning. I've been growing closer to many friends and God and it's been so different than anything else. I use to rely on one relationship as my saving grace, and unfortunately that relationship wasn't with God. So obviously I never got what I needed and never felt as awesome, loved, and like I have a purpose as I do now. It's like I've been hiding from what I need to do because I was always busy with some relationship. Now I'm single and there's nothing else I'd rather be. God is showing me so much through this. It's funny because I was so lonely when I was in a relationship and now that I'm single I feel so close to everyone else. My Mom and I are probably the best we've ever been, I hang out with good, honest, real people. It's like get rid of the junk in your yard and you'll start seeing the beautiful garden God provides. I'm not lonely because God is always with me, but also I have time for my friends and to help at my church and (I never thought I'd say this) this is so fullfilling and satisfying. I'm working for God and couldn't be happier.
I never believed in people changing, I always thought you just learned how to deal with them, but I know now through the grace of God people change. And I appreciate that fact so much more than I can explain. It's like you put yourself last and you start seeing the beauty in life. It's not about you. I heard that so many times and never fully understood. Granted, it's not always a cake walk, but God's there and more than provides for your needs.
Don't know what got me all preachy, but it's what's on my heart. Hopefully it can help someone out.