Well folks,
I went to the ER for the third time last night. I now have tonsillitis on the other side of my throat. I got a whole new batch of anti-biotics, vicoden, and motrin 800. I haven't been this sick ever. I got another shot last night as well and I almost passed out. It was sad but I felt like dying. My whole body and mind just crapped out on me.
I did make it to my first class though-I had the shakes so bad I could barely take notes. I'm worried about missing classes though because I have labs and everything is very intense. I do enjoy them though. I'll probably have to get a tutor for the chemistry things we're doing but it's exciting. I'm going to be a nurse and help people. That's a great feeling.
I can't work for the next two days, which sucks but if I don't get better soon I'm going to go crazy. My boss is awesome though and completely understanding. The job at the Dr's has been a God send. I think anyone else would have fired me. Granted I have 3 ER notes, but these people are so understanding and compassionate. It's nice to see that in others.
I'm giving a shout out to my best friend Adie! Happy Birthday Beautiful! I love and miss you. I know you're going to have a ton of fun this weekend. Have a little for me. Hehe.
I've come to a real epifany-people don't like the truth and will boycott you for it. It's amazing how many people live in their own selfish little worlds and might come out to play every once in awhile, but the minute you say something honest-they are mad at you. Ever wonder why people get so defensive and childish? Because they know you're right. I mean honestly, if someone says something that is honest they aren't trying to be mean or spiteful. Any mature person would take that evaluate it and see if they can't change something. If it's not correct they can still be mature about it and say you know I thought about what you said and it's not true. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Welcome to america. Same with advice, if someone's been somewhere you haven't and you're headed down the same road-it's not going to kill you to listen and think over what they say. It's not like they're trying to ruin your fun or are being bitter, they are trying to help you from being hurt. When people are honest with you or try to give advice it's because they care about you. Obviously, though not many people think like me and that's ok. I'm not about to hate, judge, or be immature to that person-everyone grows up in their own time. And I've found many times that I didn't take the advice and learned the exact same thing they were telling me, just the hard way. It's funny the way people work.
Anyway, I just had some things on my mind I had to get off-it could be the fever talking...lol. I've learned though to take the advice and do what's best for me. If I come off as too real, honest, or opinionated sorry-your loss.

Sorry about all the pictures. I was trying a new host site and wanted to see how well they'd come out.

I'm starting to enjoy school-because things are starting to make sense. It's scary, I might actually be good at all this nursing stuff. Finally something I'm good at and genuinly want to do. I just want to be one of the people you see that's 50 years old and still loving their job. Today I learned about digestion and chyme and all that fun disgusting stuff. My professor is funny and keeps it interesting.

I'm going to take Emily for a walk because she's been crazy active lately. It's always enjoyable because I can laugh at her chasing sticks, frogs, etc. and she has a way of putting me at ease. She's such a gift and I wouldn't trade her in the whole world. Yeah, she's a handfull but with every pain comes a blessing. Even if it is in the disguise of a learning experience.

I'm very jealous, my great friend Luke is going to Hawaii. He leaves on saturday or sunday. He's a marine and lives in Japan right now. He's had many great opportunities and it has been a good thing for him. I can't wait to hear about his Hawaii stories. I'm sure it'll be beautiful there. I'll eventually get there and will have pictures and stories of my own. But for now a shot glass from Luke will suffice.

I'm off for now but I hope I'll be able to share more interesting things later....

me 

Just me having a good time! 

Today was a great day! I got a letter from my best friend in Japan, my classes went pretty good, and my throat didn't hurt at all. Granted, I'm sure the vicodine helped. I had an interesting day in classes because both classes talked about the same thing. Which was nice because the second time around I knew exactly what was going on. It's nice when you understand things.
Have you ever had friends that changed overnight? I have and it's completely weirding me out. I love the kid to death but he's breaking my heart. I've been a very good friend and he just up and blocked our friendship for some reason. I don't understand at all. I guess I'm not suppose to, maybe he thinks he's getting the best of me by having me confused, but he's missing out on a friendship. If he just looked through all the fun and support we've given each other-he'd understand he's throwing away something good. Oh well his loss for now. I already went out of my way to be nice...and basically got shat on. Got to love that. He's a good kid, I just wish he'd get his head out of his ass. We've all been like that though once or twice, it's understandable.
Anyway, tomorrow I have my special doctors appointment for my tonsil. Hopefully he'll let me take them out so I don't have to deal with this crap again. I have already been to the ER twice in the last 4 days. Too bad I can't get frequent ER miles. A free check-up with your fifth visit of the month. Hehe.
Till next time-be nice.

me 

So, I've come to realize that women and men can't be just friends. Someone gets used. You try and be nice, open your home, be a caring friend, and apparently if you can't give them what they need-they treat you like...how shall I put it-oh like shit. Even women can't be just friends because it a competition, or I pick uglier friends then myself so I look good. It's horrible when good honest friends are hard to find. Cherish them if you have them and beware of the ones you think you can trust.

Friendship is an amazing thing if it isn't tainted with lust, jealosy, arrogance, or selfishness- it should have love in, if it's true love and not a convenience. Friends don't work out of convenience and yes there are sacrifices and selflessness that are needed in friendships, but some people are blind and too selfish to see that apparently.

Believe me in times of need you will know exactly who your true friends are. They'll call from across the world, or email in the middle of a typhoon. They'll call to see if you need anything after minor surgery. Or they'll hold your head when your waiting in emergency for the second time that week. (Thanks mom-I love you even more because it was your birthday).

I know what has caused this rant and sorry for the ramblings, but dammit everyone wants good friends. You become like the people you surround yourself with-Don't you want to be someone great? I have great friends but due to things like living in Japan, work schedules, etc. We don't see each other alot. But I know these friends and I love them, so when you read this it's not about you. Just a rant brought on by a situation I saw. I know it's only my opinion,but hey I have free speech and a will of my own.