Alright,
So today's weather was extra crappy, but I'm sure you all know about it. There was a 200+ car accident on 96. I hope that everyone was okay. It's pretty sad.

So I went to work today and my boss talked to me and I may become a receptionist. That would be exciting. It's a definite step-up. I'm excited to start training.

Finally things are looking up. I can honestly say-It's all God. Thankyou Paul for the wonderful verse you gave me the other day. It really made me have a more positive outlook. I'm still a work in progress. It's nice to be reminded of that, I still have hope. Yeah!

I went to church tonight and it was loud. Real good and it was informational and funny. I like their band, they are pretty good.

I got wicked exciting news today. Shine Down is going to be in concert at the Machine Shop and tickets are only $15. They're performing with Theory of a Dead Man. I'm going and it'll be great. I've never been to the Machine Shop, but I've heard many things about it. I'll report after I'm sure.

Little shout out to my closest friends (okay so most of you are out of country). I love you guys and you+God=my strength. And I thank you both. You have been encouraging and no one could show me greater friends. You are all wonderful examples and I'm blessed to know you.

Hope everyone is doing well and that you recognize God's blessings when they come. Call me call me! I'm praying for my friends in general and that includes you.

Okay, so after this mornings preaching-I know I did the right thing. Curt was preaching directly to me and it was great. I have a better understanding of things now.

There are good things though and bad things. Good things: my victim has friends that he can hang out with and he goes to church. I'm wicked excited about that. I hope God really speaks to him. The bad thing is now I can't hang out with those mutual friends. One makes a dumb clause like tonight will be a" guys night" so that I can't come. They're all guys but me. I would be less offended if they just said hey so and so can't handle your company because of the fresh wound-instead they patronize me. It's a "guys night." I'm hurt because meeting on sunday nights was partly started by me.

And now it looks as it did back in august. I can't hang out with anyone. It's just me and God again. I guess that might be what is needed for me. I hate the friendless road. It's not quite friendless, but the closest and dearest are far away. Phone calls and email can't always make anyone feel better. I have faith that this whole debacle will be for the better of everyone, but once again I feel like I'm being punished. I mean maybe I should be punished because I caused the whole mess-but I'll come back and be stronger than before. Hopefully I'll rely on God more now too.

A few days ago I was yelled at for always talking about God but never doing anything. This is blatant judgement and wrong. I took it badly because for the last month or so I've been trying really hard to get things together. I don't flaunt it and I keep it to myself because I don't want to be bragging or bringing anyone down. I should have obeyed God earlier and then maybe things wouldn't be so weird now. But regardless how people judge me, I know God loves me and he sees me trying. It doesn't matter if people think I'm not trying-I don't have to prove or justify anything to any human. Only God. It's definitely calling the kettle black.

I'm excited about the New Year and school is about to start. I know I'm going to fail but my Dad told me being a christian isn't about how many times you fall-it's the fact that you keep getting up.